The little Perfectionista
Everything doesn´t have to be perfect! Some of us show early signs of being a little bit hard on ourselves, even at an early age, this is a story from the little Perfectionista (that would be me):
When I was 8 or 9 years old, my mum had to help me to draw Jesus and his disciples. I just couldn´t get it perfect, I tried for hours and hours, but it was hard. I mean, it was Jesus, not just anybody. But I had to do my homework, and it was getting late and I was hysterical. So to avoid an explosion my mum drew Jesus with his disciples lightly with a pencil, and I drew on top. I still remember that I wish I could draw like that! She was amazing, she could draw!
Somehow in my head I could not draw, it was as simple as that! So to trick myself years later, I started to paint instead, same, same but different. My first octopus drawing was made with a black pen, not a pencil, and I called it a sketch, not a drawing. Because I still can´t seem to draw with a pencil…it’s something that still is a hang-up of mine. But I still surprised myself. A lot. Because since my traumatic Jesus-drawing (that wasn´t even really mine) my head screams “but I can´t draw!” like this repeat button in my head.
I’m trying hard to change these voices of negative beliefs, so I’m happy I decided to trick myself to pick up the black pen… because when I sketch the octopuses and all the other animals, I feel pretty damn happy! The mind is a powerful thing…Imagine what you can do if you set your mind to it…or just trick yourself to do it in another way…
How about you? Do you have a belief about something that only exists in your head?
To see more drawings and illustrations from the now grown up little Perfectionista (who’s learning to go much easier on herself) click on the octopus:
Great drawing, and great photo! I’m so glad you were able to find a way around the block!
He he, thank you Naomi, you are so supportive, just what I needed today..
I like your lacy octo!
he he, thanks!
NOW I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT ………:)
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Thanks Cat! Mucho mucho hugs;-)
MUCHO XO
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I LOVE YOUR CONVERSATIONAL POSTS ………
You have so much talent! That is one amazing octoypus. I never graduated stick figures…..
he he, thank you Currie! Have a wonderful day!
You too!
Your octopus looks like it is dancing. I like it. Sometimes you just have to learn to trust yourself. And if you make a mistake, that’s how you learn and improve.
Very very true, I kind of like my mistakes, that’s what makes the stories;-)
Why yes … ;o) I had that feeling and still lapse into it coming back into the world of Active Duty Army. I mean everyone around me has been doing this full time for years! How could I be as GOOD as them!?! No way would I be – my mind says.
Well almost a year into it and I’m wondering why I thought that, but yet I have a new job, a new challenge and I am doing it again, I just have to keep reminding myself, “I didn’t think I could do this – and I AM.” The mind is very powerful, I also feel this in my workouts … it gets easier to overcome that little whisper though.. LOL trick yourself. Good way to put it and your drawings are very happy!
So there’s more of us out there;-) Nice to hear, I had a feeling. Good for you that you take the challenge, I’m sure you are so much better than you think, as most of us, especially girls…for some reason! lots of good vibes and love from me
Thanks Anne!!! Yes many more of us… we tend to find each other